La Vie Est Ailleurs - Life is Elsewhere

woa it's St. Patty's today!!!!!
ARGH....

I want my life back!
Time for blogville to turn todally domestic.
Life at home sux.
Life without oboe sux.
Life without a job sux.
Life without cigarettes.....sux?
Life with extra 10kgs sux.
Life with scars sux.
Life without Student ID and privilages sux.
Life without a car sux.
Life with parents sux.......when it shouldn't suck!
(there you go, just to break out of the EXES)

and the highlight of my day: an awesome phonecall (okay maybe we've had better but this one was a life-saving one) with Brentlejuice -- ya! where i couldnt help but like nearly flooded the telephone with my tears. it's great to bawl your eyes out sometimes. and i mean the whole package. the brink of panic attack. the embarrassment. the absolute hatred. the apologies that just climbs out of my mouth cuz i couldnt say anything else. the admitting -- to falling back to my weaknesses and old ways. sometimes i'm just like damn i'm so immortal it's not funny nothing is ever going to change cuz circle is the most beautiful(in other words ugly) and frustrating thing in this peanuty existence.


and i dont give a shit for poos if this sounds so highschool.
just as you can't wait to grow up, you can't stand being old.

LIFE IS ALWAYS ELSEWHERE!
it hurts when you know it's not where you are,
but it hurts even more when you know where it should be but you can't get there!!!!!

meanwhile i sit here....gently rotting away...
and i cant leave this song alone....

Let’s dance in style, lets dance for a while/Heaven can wait we’re only watching the skies/Hoping for the best but expecting the worst/Are you going to drop the bomb or not?
Let us die young or let us live forever/We don’t have the power but we never say never/Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip/The music’s for the sad men/
Can you imagine when this race is won/Turn our golden faces into the sun/Praising our leaders we’re getting in tune/The music’s played by the madmen

Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever

Some are like water, some are like the heat/Some are a melody and some are the beat/Sooner or later they all will be gone/Why don’t they stay young
It’s so hard to get old without a cause/I don’t want to perish like a fading horse/Youth is like diamonds in the sun/And dimonds are forever
So many adventures couldn’t happen today/So many songs we forgot to play/So many dreams are swinging out of the blue/We let them come true

Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever

Old Book Needs a New Cover

Okay so i found this in the shitty bitten crap doofus of a notebook, which I wrote on my trip back to Taiwan. I am yet to write anything about it cause it leaves me feeling rather emptied out.
I'm not sure if i make sense to myself anymore, i mean hello just look at the following!
But some may say it is trash, some may not. I'm swinging between the two right now, so i mite as well dump it here:


"Old Book Needs a New Cover"

Let us re-define
the deep and the meaningful?
Nope. It's the deep and the meaningless
And mystery in the useless
I'm the collector
(yawn)

Fetishes - the new thirst
Honesty - the new ketchup
Cigarette fumes - the new purple
But confusion is not the new clarity.

"Why" - my favourite question
"Dunno" - my faviourite answer
Probably. But then..... (I dunno)

Now and always.

Grass suddenly tastes like glass
While rain tints the hairs on my back
I wish I'm the bruised raven
bathing in the morning moonlight

Shivers
Comfort awaits.

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Man! *&^%%^#^&%*
as i type this i'm not sure if i like it at all!!!!
what the fuck!!!
but i'm not going to edit this post.
argh. screw it.
something good will come up.
:)
....meanwhile i'm dying to have a cancer stick.......