Through the Portal, On Reverse

memories live in our minds.
and sometimes makes us feel more than we should
the flesh and blood and ur pumping heart.
stretches and shrinks as days and nights pass.

you know you've gone too far
when it seeps into your soul.
magical, malicious belief
is larger than God.

what was then sweet
turned sour,
then bitter,
like gun powder,
and suddenly my tongue catches fire

later the tears evaporate without warning
above the flames that never goes out

this evening
i travelled back in time
1990
everything blackens
im uglier than The Mr Taxi Driver
because iv let him live in me ever since.

really really really
hope tonight
i can sleep like it's 1989 again

otherwise i'll sit forever at my school desk
on this never-ending incomplete test
where i know the last question is worth the remaining fifty percent
but all i do is frantically keep guessing
because i'm too scared to stop and listen
and maybe that's why i can never go home.